Beating the odds
More like being owned by the odds, in more than one unfortunate event. Damn.
First was the lousy long weekend that went to procrastination. Really how I did it, I'm not sure myself. Striked off like only a meager one off my list of eight items. It's like there's always so much (fun) things to do when you're supposed to be studying. And the opposite is always true, when you don't have to study, there never seem to be anything to do.
Moral of the story, need to source for new motivation or a new planner.
Next on the list. Tried to be a smartass today and allowed my perfectionist self to take a long deserved break before it snaps. Turns out, giving leave to spurs of the moments are not really my thing. Kinda depressing though. Spontaneity nada. Anyway, if planning things out in microscopic detail means saving time then why not right? Ended up losing my key which I retrieved ultimately.
Kth, oh Kth. Formally withdrew from Kth Royal Institute of Technology today. Kinda with a heavy heart. Sighs. If onlys.
...
I don't wanna be lonely no more
Kth, oh Kth.
First I tried to be an smartass and apply for instep even though I had no plans (not really) of actually going through with it. At least not this semester. Then next thing I know, I got in. Now I feel like an asshole. Kth Royal Institute of Technology at that. Asshole. Period. I am a master at guilting myself.
Withdrawing would mean nothing much (lie), and yet not withdrawing seems neither here nor there (truth). Why did I give in to that tempting urge/desire/yearning that time? Now guilt is here to stay no matter what I choose.
Fuck. Where is Destiny when you need her? No time like the present to actually want to know how your life pans out. Not the entire life per se, that would take the thrill out of living but would a glimpse, a peek hurt?
Come and see me in my dreams tonight...
On the other hand, I wanna go so badly that I might be even pondering a... :O Dare I say it aloud?! A 4 year instead of a 3.5. Sighs... Weak will.
Mugging date with the books this long weekend. Hope it turns out productive. Most of the time. See I'm a realistic person. And I'm going to make it even better, I'm limiting myself to 2h max of social stuffs. On offical hiatus after this blog post, bitches.
Is just another heartache on my list.
Goal for this semester: Pull the effing GPA to an effing 2nd uppers damn. Smoke it, bitches.
Humble confessions
Is it terrible of me to half hope that it'll rain tomorrow so history can repeat itself?
I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you & me.
Ownedz by the weekend
Did surprisingly less productive work even when I pretty much dedicated my weekend to playing catch up. Took too many breaks of course, but what else can you do when you can't concentrate right? Staring at the notes/books sure ain't gonna cut it.
Week 3 is gonna be another breeze.
Not.
I wanna (pack) up and go. Take a trip somewhere. Somewhere only we know. Watch the day past us by. Lying on the green grass, watching the clouds. Falling asleep, knowing. Knowing...
And it goes like this...
Lost track of how many times I used this song.
Anyhoos. Here I am. Blogging midweek. I have so many things to do say for example, copy notes for 316. But I'm not. Instead I'm blogging. Stating the obvious, but it makes me feel better.
Bad weather ought to be a reasonable excuse not to come to school. Thank goodness they don't take attendance in universities. Took the chance to dye my hair, which for some reason, my hair still smell like the hairdye product. :/
CS8100 was unexpectedly... Cool. And I've decided to stick with two CS electives for this semester on top of my three cores. Speaking of which, I need to buy textbooks for both. Juggle 18 AUs with two tuition assignments and a possible ECA. Time will tell. Hopefully. Something good.
ECA? Sighs
Exchange?? Sighs
Internship!! Sighs
Only. The. Second. Week.
Only. Wednesday. Or. Thursday. If. You. Are. Anal. About. It.
I will survive!
Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me till you're drunk
And I'll show you
You want the moves like jagger
I've got the moves like jagger
I've got the moooooooveeeessss like jagger
3 2 1 and action
When do you take action? Step out of your own comfort zone. When do you speak? When do you lend a helping hand? What do you learn from enforced cme lessons? How do one even teach civics & moral education? The whole thing is such a debacle that it kinda makes no sense to trace its origins.
when you see a blind man walking around aimlessly at the train platform.
when you see a cockroach almost being squashed by the person seated next to you on the train, while thinking thank God it's not me and secretly thinking eew wtf it went pass me?!?!?!?
when you see a kid being hit and slapped by (someone I assumed to be) her mom repeatedly and crying because it hurts and that her cheeks and her arms are bruised
When do you help? When do you take that step? When do you become a hero among the crowd?
Concrete jungles where dreams are made of
First day of second week of school. Woke up at 730 and did the normal routine of getting ready for school. Just when I was about to leave the house, what do you know. Heavy downpour. Like an intense session of cats and dogs. Sheets of rain literally pouring down. No way am I going to make it of my house dry. So I decided on a self study at home. Seriously no contest. Wasn't going to make it for survival on time, and then followed by a 3h break (like total waste-time) and then a 2h of regression. Which I would at most listen to half that time. So like I said, no contest.
Okay so technically I haven't start. But I have a lot of admin things to do. Like sign up for recruitment talks (check), put a ear out for potential ccas, start researching on attachment progs, play catchup with week1, research for instep (check), sign up for instep (check check), talk to MAS coordinator for instep. Mostly done so yay!
Called OHP for hairdye/treatment appointment and bloody hell get someone who can speak on the phone for reception duties next time please. Got pissed so early in the morning. Totally ruined my everloving mood.
Like a overachiever sometimes. I wanna go for work&travel, exchange, have an awesome gpa, a good internship and graduate in 3.5.
There's nothing you can't do
Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let's hear it for New York (NY, NY)
Running on low
4h of sleep.
It's a new record!
School was sucky. Woke up at 0730 and managed a pretty much conscious weighing of pros and cons of going to school for 2x1h lect. Dragged my lazy ass off the bed at 0800. Hurried to school. Found seats thankfully. Dozed for abit while thinking why I decided what I did. First lect went passed in a blur. Caught like 70% which was pretty good, given A) can't recall a single shit in the last sem B) for a morning lect when running esp on 4h. 3h break ensued. Wasted an hour refreshing STARS.
Totally forgot about the internship/fyp/exchange talk. Dinner and movie with N. Home.
Lotsa things to do. Ciaos.
Back to sticking with
the plan.
And that's just how we roll
Note to self: no hanky panky this sem
*Mark up
potential life changing calendar events;
*
Internship thingy;
*GET
ONE MORE BLOODY ELECTIVE (AT LEAST)!!!!!
Procrastination be gone!
And I swear
Wherever we go from here
We'll be one till the sky falls down
So watch and learn
Busy like a bumblebee.
How is it possible that I spent the entire National Day running about and not having accomplish much? God. And I had such big plans. Second day (but technically still the first day of school), I feel swamped already. This week is packed with heat manz.
To do:
Generally, two things: need (plus urge thanks to a highly motivated start) to catch up on schoolwork (already) because sadly even though I attended both lectures dutifully, all I heard most of the time was blahblahblah. Grab one or two more elective(s), hopefully still leaving a four day week!!!
- Would be out the entire day. Tmr.
- Need to ring up Achieve Consulting. Tmr.
- Conduct some highly secretive stuffs. Tmr.
- After school movie & dinner on thursday.
- Tuition on friday
- Tuition on saturday
- Birthday party on saturday after tuition. Which reminds me, need to go get present.
Oh man................ No me-time!
I'm not going to show you twice
Head to toe
Oooh baby rub me right
If I share my secret
You're gonna have to keep it
Nobody else can see this
And it goes like this
Changing the world....
By investing in the economy through retail investment.
Really. Need a new bag, new sneakers, new haircut. Why can't school start on a thursday like NUS? Okay enough lamenting about tmr. Why didn't I get my electives?!!? Now I have to camp again while chanting 4 day week 4 day week 4 day week.
Despite these, things look pretty good to me right now.
Until tomorrow then...
