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Okay I’ve got this sudden urge to write. Not sure where it’s coming from. And certainly not due to peer influence because nobody seems to be updating! Well, except me! This is probably old news but I’ve yet to get a job. Oh and frankly I know where my writing urge came from. Yours truly haven’t been wasting my time at home in case anybody was wondering, but of course that is but my opinion. Feel free to disagree. I’ve been mm let’s say brushing up on my language instead and indulging in books. Now you may think you know what kind of books I read, key word being think, and usually you’re right, I am sadly that predictable, but I’ve made a recent discovery about myself. Besides being a sucker for anything vampy/werewolfish, seriously I’ve got no idea when my fascination with the supernatural started, I found myself to be quite a fan of sappy romance novels and their happily-ever-afters. Hahaha joke of the century. Not. I, for one, of course have standards, and I’m definitely not one for those half-nekid covers of the lead characters. And just to illustrate how much I’ve been reading with statistics, I’ve already reached ¼ of 2008’s reads.
Speaking of which, who wants to watch Underworld: Rise of the Lycans with me? hehe been dying to catch it since last year! Thank God it’s only m18, and I’ve never been so grateful for my being 18. Oh and Breakout the dance comedy showing at the Esplanade too!
Ah. That just simply sums up how I spent the last few weeks after returning from my vacation. Reading. And nothing else. As one recalls, I’ve yet to upload the part 2 of day3-5. But interestingly enough, guilt had me uploading the pics onto facebook and well enjoy. I think it’s going to be a long while before I update it with words but even then I’m fairly certain even boredom can’t motivate me to do that.
Just now when I was munching on Famous Amos, okay before anyone starts envying me, that was my lunch, I saw the psp lying on the cabinet and wondered. I’ve pretty much only seen one kind of psp with the direction keys on the left and the shapes buttons on the right. So how do left-handers play? Honestly, I duno why it only occurred to me just, just, but how do left-handers really play? Then it also occurred to me that I haven’t seen any left-handers play the psp before. Life is so unfair huh? And in the lecture theatres, the desks are more suited for right-handers and it makes it fairly difficult for lefties to write without the elbow support. Not to mention other things.
Dread has pretty much settled back into my life now that feb is a blink of an eye away. It was so easy to not think about Results with a capital R when it isn’t imminent relatively. Mm maybe that’s why I keep burying myself in books in an attempt to get to the point of mindless oblivion. And no, actually it doesn’t help when friends try to reassure you that it’s gonna be okay or alright. Although I appreciate it nevertheless, truly. And suffice it to say that I’ve never been so lost in my entire existence. Because I am. I’ve got no bloody clue what course to pursue and what to be when I grow up. And it doesn’t quite help when people around you think that you can’t do this or that and will be better off instead doing this or that. The million dollar question becomes how they know what’s for me and what’s not when I don’t. Being 18 of age, I have it in me or rather in my head that I’m or will be going through a journey of self-discovery, be it physically, emotionally, or spiritually. Thus, my annoying indecisiveness.
am i the only one who's gonna spend vday at the ntu talk? tsk
still jobless... at the moment
sian much as i yearn to get off my ass and out of my house to do something productive to say the least and even make some quick meager bucks, i find myself reluctant to go through classified ads and answering them. maybe it's the fear of rejection. mm i think that's it. yup.
last friday's gathering was how shld i put it, kind of lukewarm. but it was fun catching up nevertheless. pictures are at reg's blog. and others are well, somewhere (over the rainbow).
meanwhile, i realised many coincidences have occurred in my absence. say for eg, joel, nigel (sec sch classmates) and tingyong (jc classmate) ended up in the same platoon. agnes (jc netballer) and nicole (pri sch classmate) both working as camp f. and may (sec sch classmate) and yiling (jc classmate) being colleagues. like what a small world this is. i wonder what's next. lol
i wonder how much cny hongbao are gonna diminish this time. zzz
season 2 and well, reality is pretty ex
season 2 of gossip girl: nate: a gigolo? chuck in love? blair: future duchess? serene over with dan for good? jenny back to ol' jenny? freaking addictive.
anyway, i pretty much got used to the adult fare alr. zzz every trip out of the house cost at last 2$. and i'm making nada moolah at the moment. at this rate, i see myself paying my debts with my angbao money. wtf?
whywhywhy haven the people got back to me??? okay truthfully speaking, i've only send like a couple of resumes out and given how empty it was, not only was it discouraging for me while i was typing it, but getting no reply was !@#$% frustrating to say the least. why can't they put me out of my misery by sending a thanks but no thanks. i would appreciate it better. i think. i know it was a mistake to squander away my carefree dec days. but if only i hadn't, then things would be looking up for me by now. i think. and pulling out of the camp f thing was a stupid mistake. tsktsktsk.
looking forward to friday where we'll have our alas sec netball gathering after a million years. i always love catching up!
OMFG. i can't believe i actually titled one of my earliest post: quickie before shower. LOL thats like so wrong on so many accounts. HAHAHAHHA i swear there was no pun intended that time. i think. HAHAHAHAHAHA
and......
i'm done with season 1 of Gossip Girl!
HAHAHAHAHAH
bored at home, ...
so i went to cut my hair again! hahahaha
thanks to sis's insistence, i've got myself a new look; i have bangs now. hahaha i look kinda cute if i can say so myself. hehe oh and i've got a few streaks of violet. damn cool la. now my hair got multi color.
guy bff got in ns today, so did tingyong and joel and a few others. i wonder how they'll look like! i mean not every one looks okay with the shaven look. lol will prolly meet up with guy bff after the first 2 weeks since tzehui wants her prezzie. haha
went metro later in the night but went home empty handed. actually everyone went home empty handed except for dad. meanwhile when we were there, sis and i went on a discovering trail at the uh males underwear section and wow. hahaha something we heard one guy called kangaroo pouch which really fits the description of the particular brief. lololol
agnes and nicole came back from the camp f training alr. zzz they had lots of fun at least that's what i heard from nicole. damnit. coolio offer got turned down just like that. anyway, mum found me a couple of jobs. funny how i've got some offers when i haven technically search for any myself. anyway i'm gonna try out as a tuition teacher or smth of that sort, send my resume in tmr, and maybe even the librarian job. so that i can kope the books i want asap. hehe but the library job sadly pays 4.5$ per hour which is quite meager. depends. one step at a time. toodles for now. GG beckons!
tag
Once you’ve been tagged you have to write a note with 16 random things, shortcomings, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
1. the reason why i have au wanton as my name in facebook is bcos of a stupid prank by sis.
2. i like watching jamie oliver at home at ch16. he makes cooking an art, kitchen a paradise, and food a salivating luxury.
3. i detest the smell of mangoes.
4. i kept long hair once. but that was in pri 2.
5. with reference to point 1. wanton is the nickname which i allow only my sis and fam to call me without me feeling insulted. long story.
6. i like to watch people chasing after their buses. hahaha kind of like gloating over their misery but i can't help myself.
7. i wanna see what Earnest looks like now. it's been more than a decade since ...
8. the only time i wore makeup was when i was gearing up for prom in sec4. and i wasn't really all that willing.
9. i blast my handphone when i shower.
10. and of course sing along with whomever who's singing.
11. i like singing in front of sis cos i know it irritates the shit out of her.
12. i read a total of 98 books last year. hahaha
13. i think Dan Humpfrey/Penn Badgley and Serena van der Woodsen/Blake Lively makes a cute couple at Gossip Girl and in real life.
14. Hugh Jackman is a epitome of masculine beauty.
15. i used to fanatise about what it would be like if i were a vampire or a werewolf. hehe
16. last but not least, (i was saving the best for the last) the fact that no one knows except my fam, but i used to have a christian name which i objected and since never used.
I tag:
1. sis; cos i have to.
2. yiling; who's probably as free as i am since we're both jobless at the moment.
3. agnes; bcos it will be interesting to know.
4. shuxin; she's always updating her blog.
5. shingchung; if you're reading this. HAHAHA
6. jesselyn; which i wonder if she reads my blog at all or just looks at the pics. HAHAHA
7. oh crap i duno who to tag alr. feel free if you feel like doing this despite not having me to tag. 16 is a lot seriously.
hooked on GG
Q: Why shld i be chosen as an usher?
R: I'm Chuck Bass.
LOL
4th of Jan
damn i knew i shld have given in to the urge to blog and to vent my angst yesterday even at 4AM. now my anger is all sated and i really dun feel like venting it out again. but the main gist of it was having lost my job without me even starting on it. how fucking wrong is that? to think i had looked forward to tackling my virgin job as a camp facilitator and the same ones who kept lamenting me to go out and get a job were impossibly the ones who kept me from doing this. wtf. sometimes i wonder if parents really do things with the child's best interests at heart or merely wanting their child to do things the way they want. at this rate i'll probably be living their dreams instead of my own and that's pretty fucked up. even though i dun exactly have an inkling on what i'm going to pursue in the near future. damnit.
anyway even though i was pretty certain that i was over it before i started this entry, now i realised how i was never the forgive and forget type. oh wells. i'm back to square one, single, jobless and broke. hahaha but not exactly the three. it's like a combination but not really specifically into any one.
yesterday was like the worst day in the history of worst days. and it all started when i read my horoscope in Newspaper, it said smth of a Scorpio having to experience one of the worst days ever in 2009 (which totally hit the spot. thank god it was the worst with a t, i would hate to think how shitty the rest of the year would go.) only to look back in Dec thinking it was one of the 5th best times. hello wtf? how can a possibly history-making type of worst day be looked back upon as one of the best? so damn cryptic. anyway the whole ordeal of losing my job had been a horrible-beyond-words experience.
oh i just realised my cam is flat and i can't continue my zh/m thingy so next time. toodles
happy 2009!
it feels kinda weird now. i wonder if its me?
2009 literally started off with a bang.
fireworks this year was better than last's. and being up close to it made it even better as in shiok. the bang-ing of fireworks resounded even after the last one, and to the extent that you could feel the sound vibrating through you whilst the fireworks was going on. meanwhile the before was kinda pathetic, the three of us sat at the bus stop after roaming around after dinnering at pepper lunch.
nothing can beat this i swear.
anyway it was fun pushing through the impossible crowd. and i was damn lucky to have caught chase after 133, it was the freaking last bus. thank god. 2009 started off well. at least for me. hehe. meanwhile yiling and yenleng had to walk all the way back to the mrt station.
i dun feel like sleeping now even though it's 219AM! zzz but there's nothing to do! mmm
toodles!
ps litespeed expired! lol
