reality suckss
i'm a procrastinator, what are you?
note to self: blogging often is not a good sign but rather an ominous one. do not blog as often! at least until 18nov.
goodness. i have been so absorbed with reading my books that i haven't done a single worthy thing that i feel proud to acknowledge here. spent the entire yesterday reading New Moon (second sequel of Twilight by stephenie meyer), and basically that's that unless you count tuition in. oh and i read till 3am. siao i know. i think i was out of my mind okay strike that, i go out of my mind everytime i pick up a good book. i get easily absorbed into the book to the extent that i can forget abt my churning hunger (for food). looking back, tsktsktsk. i shldn't even have rewarded myself that much after prelims since really, who am i kidding? the hell i did lots of revising or practising. and that wld show in a few days time. no wait, it has already shown since the scores for chem mcq are out. needless to say, i'm disappointed yet again. maybe this is another amazing reason why i happily merrily like to read fiction books becos they NEVER remind me of the title of this particular post.
i'm so not ready to go back to school. first the waking-up part at 6am though i always snooze it until 630. second the sleep-early part. my body operates in a weird way, like it can adapt quickly to late bedtimes but can't do the same for the early ones. third, guilt come flooding back due to the mighty procrastination yours truly did. fourth, i hate the fact that time is REALLY running out; the countdown on the school's website says 37days 07hours 52min and ticking seconds. and the worst part is, i'm not doing anything to help myself. sighs. and now i wonder why i'm still doing here. if i have the time to type these shit, how come i dun have time to do my work or at least find time to find my motivation back. at least the latter would be a good investment something that goes a long way, i think.
i'll be heading for bed. hopefully tmr would be a better day. (cliche much?)
and thus the universe resumes its axis
i was going to come home after tuition to do what i do best, bitch, complain and whine abt my day which had gone quite badly particularly during tuition. to think today was just the day after the end of prelims! but i thgt better of that. except this tpjc girl and her friend who sat next to me. no offence to the sch and everything. but i dun know her name but i haven't had a nice feeling abt her from the start and well the school is the only thing i can identify her with, besides some one who tries too hard. sometimes she wears this short squash skirt (which is the same as tennis skirt right?) that is supposed to look flattering but had the completely opposite effect on her to class. no offence to the sport either but yaa. normally, our paths are 180 if you know what i mean, we even sit at different sides. i dun make an effort to mingle. you dun pay 200bucks a month to socialise do you? heck i dun even talk to my schoolmates much during class. anyway because classes are combined now, she had nowhere else to seat, and my row had sufficient seats for her and her friend. she didn't bring her worksheet to class, neither did her friend, and they started talking or gossiping or catching up, whichever. i was trying hard to pay attention excuse me. anyway the topic of their discussion was; comestic surgery (odd), A levels (typically), clubbing (quite naturally), and some other nonsensical thing which i blocked out. but the comestic surgery one was so funny. let me share with the class. imagine X: the main female character; Y: her friend. out of nowhere, she took out photos containing her friend i think and then she was gushing like "eh, when did you go for plastic surgery? your nose used to be so big. i also want to go next time when i have the money. i think korea is The Place to go for plastic." then blahblahblah i was already trying hard not to laugh thus i tuned her out. i didn't get to hear Y's reply, but now that i'm actually thinking of it, Y didn't seem to have replied her. Hahaha oh yes, in addition, she came from school, and has the typical backpack. and guess what, she goes for tuition without a GC. like hello, doesn't that resemble a situation whereby a blind man walks without his cane, or the deaf without his hearing aid. (no pun intended at all) throughout the 2 hour lesson, not to mentioned a drag, but also quite nerve-wrecking to have her yakking almost constantly. i contemplated in my head on whether i shld tell her politely to keep her volume down or that it's nice of her to share her linen with a stranger but really, like i could have cared less. okay i admit to have internal monologue sometimes and since i'm more of a thinker or ponderer rather than a doer, i kept my thoughts to myself as usual. so tuition ended with the usual way on a friday night, "hurry pack your stuffs, the next class is coming in." and the next class happens to be my brother's sec3 amaths class with my previous tutor.
as i was saying, i'm not much of a whiner, (okay i may/might be, but whatever!) i'm the blog master/mistress so my word is final. Hahaha a perk on top of getting the space to rant off my miseries. on a sidenote, i can't believe i wrote so much abt her. anyway digress much? prelims are so over! feels nice to be saying that out loud, makes it more real even though it's gonna be short-lived. hehe. caught Disaster Movie after phys paper 1 which really turned out to be what the title suggest. so srsly, unless you've got spare bucks to spare, my advice would be not waste it on DM. Epic Movie was a better film, DM wasn't even remotely non-stop H-A-H-A-H-A kind of funny, but it was grossly sick kinda funny if you get what i mean. it poked fun at many stuffs, like Hannah Montana, HSM, Juno, Bewuolf, Night at the Musuem, Sex and the City, Enchanted, Jessica Simpson, the chipmunks (which was quite sick when the chipmunks went rabies), even Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skulls. srsly, the incredible hulk smashed by a cow? or ironman squashed to an iron tin by another fall-from-the-sky cow. so no link please. the only redeeming funny bit was the amy whinehouse part with her sabertooth and her facenook and her bird nest hair which had everything from an ibook to beer. i think it was a general consensus that we wanted to catch the premiere of Mamma Mia! but the next available timing was 8.20PM. so oh wells. and being a weekday and being students hence there's the budget thing (PED>>1 LOL) and age-wise thing to consider, we had limited choices. movie duration was around an hour and twenty and after that we said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. the bus ride home was butt-numbing weirdly since it wasn't my first time to take 133 from the amk interchange back home but well, not sure what's the cause. and i saw the same zhss guy whom i see taking 133 every day starting from the week! so coincidental. everytime he boards, Flo-rida's Low would follow him.
i started playing neopets again. and i'm not surprised when the sites didn't change one bit. and the last time i logged in was what, a few years back? sadly so as to speak, one of my fave games evolved, specifically Bullseye II. it's so freaking challenging to score a 50-50 mark now. my odds used to be 90% 70/100 but now my highest score is only a depressing 30. but i'm sure that's gonna change within the next few days. also, destruct-o-match was now a version III with the same amount of tackiness to it. hehe but old habits never die. ohohoh and a new game called Imperial Exam which i strongly encourage you people to try out. damn i had thgt my english had a certain standard by now, the advanced level left me dumbfounded. words i've never even seen before popped out of the screen and i couldn't even get pass the first stage that one needs to just admit ten neopets with the correct spelling. and that, is saying a lot, a lot a hell lot of things. which was quite demoralising. anyway i picked my deflated ego at some other lame games which i totally conquered.
i made a trip to the library after breakfast today. actually make that 2 trips. breakfast-ed at some hk cafe in J8 that's opposite Pizza Hut. had the porridge set, which wasn't very tasty and the tea with milk wasn't to my liking at all. but i wasn't the one paying so i had to do my part by finishing up. went to the bishan library first and got 2 books. spent quite a great deal of time, re-reading some of my books until i decided the air con was getting way cold even with my jacket and my poor, suffering but still running nose couldn't tolerate another second and i totally lost count of how many tissues i've used to blow my disgusting mucus out, only then did i drag my lazy ass out, and went on my merry way to tpy library. hehe what can i say? i'm a total (fiction) book reader/lover. haha actually i had other motives other than to feed my incredulous appetite for fantasy books, but also to catch a free ride home in addition to getting free lunch. mock me if you wish but yours truly had succeeded in all my greedy attempts. so yay me. anyway i'm done with 2/4 books which i had borrowed, so i guess i'll be making another trip down to the L soon.
omg i realised i just did what i said i wouldn't. recap: i said i wouldn't bitch abt my day but nuts i end up doing it to every smallest detail except for the tuition incident which i have started to feel bad for. it's a mystery since the conscience kicks in only after the deed is done. cripes. i think i figured out why my day started out so bad. i slept at 3am the day before and got willingly dragged out of bed (because of the freebies thrown in) at 9am. god. no wonder! my girls would know how i am and how i'll be without my sleep, so there goes. case closed. wow it's like nancy drew o: okay weak link i know. my sense of humor is kinda backward. ciaos
Horrible
horrible with a capital H!
goodness. i hope i can go to sch tmr for math p2.
was running a temperature earlier, apart from head throbbing, throat aching, and having a stuck nose. now, fever subsided and overall seemed to feel a bit better. head certainly feels lighter. going to see a doc in the morning tmr. zzz srsly i thgt i would get better. the symptoms started appearing on friday, and i really thgt by sat, i'll be a-okay. but turns out... oh well... i dun want to bring a toilet roll to sch tmr! neither do i want to blow my nose in the mpr while the atmosphere is so silently tense. we've all got things we don't want to do, haven't we? swell.
dinnertime. bye! 4 more papers to go before a short holiday.
brought back to the past...
have you ever had that feeling, after you see, hear, taste or feel that you get zap into the past just like that? having gotten thrusted into the rusty memory that i thgt i lost was really smth altogether. kind of like a first for me. a nice first. and to think i had that moment at tpy's kopitiam while having fishball noodles for late breakfast/early lunch. so not the ideal scenario. but there you have it. mom ordered fbn cos i wasn't feeling quite up to having the usual more tasty stuffs, i doubted i could have savoured the taste anyway. oh back to the point! that simple fbn reminded me of the 50c brightly orange colored bowl of good fond memories in primary school. i thgt i forgot plently abt primary school but turns out i still had plently in my head/mind. okay i rmbr the catching, the hopscotch and a particular freaking embarrassing incident which i cannot seem to forget (damnit!) but i'm basically still grasping with the social life part. sad isn't it? to think i spent 6 years of my precious golden period and i have a pretty much blank recollection. when i first stepped into wss as a sec1 student, i could still (happily) recite every last name of my 6/6 classmates in farrer park. now i only rmbr that um 10+ names. the thing that makes it even worse is i dun even go for primary school gatherings. okay i know it sounds almost like i'm not making an effort to help myself. Lol which is, i must clarify, so not the case. i had uh schedule clashes.
the human brain is so fascinating, ay? sometimes you try to grope for one particular memory, the harder you try, the more nowhere you got. then out of sudden, it just BAMS.
Alas. halfway through with prelims. (so fast!)
Dear God, my stuck nose and my itching plus aching throat is killing me.
i'm thankful this is not the actual A's period. but i still have half of prelims to go! this is so ruining my study mood. (okay now i have a reason for not performing well for my prelims.) but i'll take prelims any day than having flu hit me. i'm dying...
Worthy Gossip News: Channing Tatum got engaged to Jenna Dowan.
Meanwhile, a day closer;
to A's
TO MY 18TH BIRTHDAY (dun pretend you didn't see this!)
to HSM3: senior year
to Twilight.
goodbye for now!
free like a bird
i wish.
flying seems fun. but at the same time there's this height factor to consider since i have acrophobia.
imagine life before and without the wright brothers.
srsly, i've tried and i can't.
After A's, 18nov to be exact, will the title of this post be realized and made possible. i can't believe i'm actually counting down to end of A's. (okay maybe on a subconscious level i was more of counting down to my birthday; does that make me less guilty?)
