Silence Speaks

Jan

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

posted by wantington-ny @ 8:03 PM 0 Comments

the tooth fairy

I think I'm starting to identify Dwayne Johnson's type of movies alr. 3.2 stars.

A movie a year. A tradition never to be broken.

Labels: dwayne johnson, the tooth fairy

posted by wantington-ny @ 11:05 PM 0 Comments

Works Of An Overstressed Mind And Overactive Imagination

I NEED A BREAKK!

Like pronto. Like seriously.

EVEN MY BRAIN IS TELLING ME TO STOP.

Among other things like forgetfulness, the urge to procrastinate more than usual, the postponing of stuffs, the general laziness and the lack of sleep.

I JUST HAD A FREAKING NIGHTMARE IN MY AFTERNOON NAP! Never mind that it was an afternoon nap. Never mind that I slept at 2 plus last night. The fact that, I rarely have dreams, makes this a freaking MIRACLE! In a bad kind of way obviously.

Bloody hell. And it involved so many things, and so many people. And even my treasured goose feathers pillow!

Time was today.

Friday 29/01/10.

I found myself magically at home after taking a nap (which i was taking). That's was dreams are about, right? Finding yourself somewhere with no logical explanations about it. Anyway, I was sorta transported back home while sleeping. Yes, that's it. How else would you say that first you were lying on your bed in hall, the next you woke up in your bed at home.

Initial reaction was YAY! Finally home. Have been looking forward to coming back since forever this week. Then when i looked around and realised, its about 430. Marketing tutorial class was to start at 430. Somehow I wasn't panicking about being late for class, but my panic mode was basically about missing my presentation! Already we were shorthanded, original team strength was 6, but at the moment - 3, and Suteng didn't do a lot of work. Which left Samuel and me. We had our disagreements but we did the slides afterall, despite a lot of inner grumblings on my part, and his outward shaking of his head in disapproval.

430. I asked Mom to drive me there. Then it occurred to me, a traffic jam at the expressway was prolly anticipating another victim on the highways. I was fretting like hell. Determined to at least make a miraculous effort to be there. Even though a part of me was like mmm it's kinda good that its over, and that not that I didn't want to. Anyway, I did sent Sam a sms apologising.

Again. I was transported back to hall. But this time, the presentation was over. The OMC BBQ was looming. It was about 6plus. Amazingly, Yanting (present clique) was with me. We were somewhere outside NTU, but the scene was amazingly the splitting image of Little India. And I was grabbing my pillow not sure why. When we turned a corner, we realised we were at the BBQ site. I saw Sherline and we started chitchatting, with me hugging my pillow. A while later, me and yanting left the group to go back to my roomto deposit my pillow. On the way back, I saw a group dancing to New Classic (by Drew Seeley and Selena Gomez in the disney movie Another Cinderella Story) and stopped to watch for awhile. Amazingly, Yanting started dancing to it. Shock of my life.

So anyway, after that, we went back to our original place, before turning and finding the BBQ site. I supposed we took a wrong turn, for we ended up in Little India. We were quite lost, and it was getting darker, so we started to panic a little. Later we met up with 2 Chinese who were on their way back to NTU as well, namely Wenting and her friend, so we followed them. Wenting was my secondary school friend. What a coincidence I thought. Haven been talking to her since secondary school. So we started catching up.

Then I started boasting about my pillow. What's with it being goose feathered and all. Several times, Wenting wanted to touch for herself, but I was in a playful mood, and kept avoiding her hands. After a while, I pass the entire pillow to her. What she did next was UNBELIEVABLE.

She threw my pillow on the ground, stomped a few times and kicked it to a distance. I was in a state of shock, after my pillow fell to the ground helplessly and I watched it fly. Immediately I went over to pick the poorly treated now damn black pillow with dirty footprints, and looked at the guilty person pointedly, asking what all that was about. She started looking contrite.

Which was a show obviously. Because she then took my pillow from me again, and kicked it to the roads. This time I was fsater to react, but not fast enough. A car went through it at rather high speed, it sliced my pillow into half, and poof, my pillow was nothing but a flurry set of feathers.

I started crying and crying and arguing with her. What the fuck was wrong with you? I wasn't holding anything back. I started pushing her to the roads, with the intention was driving her to the same state she drove my pillow I think. Then some person appeared and restrained me with Yanting's help. Can't remember who this person was, but she was on my side. He/she comforted me. After a while I stopped crying. And started fighting, with words. Fuck kept coming out which wasn't a surprise. I tend to swear alot when I'm angry. Just ask my brother.

Wenting wanted to cut me at somepoint of my one-sided argument which of course I was winning, but I didn't relent. Finally, I had to stop to breathe. She said she hadn't do it on purpose initially, but was too caught up in Envy (one of the seven sins) when I kept talking about the goodness of my pillow. And so the tirade began again. Which part was not on purpose? The throwing it to the ground part, the kicking part, or the stomping part? After a while I started repeating myself, which the third party stopped me. I had obviously made my point. We made our way back to NTU in silence.

We turned into a doorway and it was entrance to Hall 4. Random. Wenting led the way in, I was like you live in Hall 4 as well? She nodded her head. This time she looked really contrite, but I still wanted to bash her up or do something equally drastic to seek revenge for my abused pillow. I think Yanting knew what I was up to, and she followed behind me to the doorway. Wenting went back to her room without harm and I ended up in mind. Thanked Yanting profusely, didn't want to think, refusing to think, what would happen if she wasn't there the way she was. Then she left.

I sat alone on my bed. Looking at my empty bed, without my pillow, I started crying again. I remember calling Mom to tell her about it, and she promised to help me get Wenting back. After a while, I decided to freshen up and make my way down for the BBQ. Just when I was about to leave, Meiping (my roomie) came back and I started rehashing the sorrowful tale again. This time I cried, then thankfully I woke up.

After analysing the dream after i awoke, there were too many coincidences.
1. Wenting was in poly. Meaning she'll graduate in Mar/Apr.
2. At some point in time, I tried slapping myself and pinching, and surprisingly it didn't hurt. So part of me was aware that I was trapped in a dream. It makes me smile knowing I was so damn pragamatic even in my dreams. Lol
3. The nightmare broke when I was crying, back in the room, sans my goose feathered pillow.
4. The nightmare was like a freaking puzzle that fitted together all that's on my mind at the moment. The presentation, the bbq, missing my family, the accumulating stress, the uh slight distaste of foreigners. Basically nothing really good. A few funny points but that was it.

Interesting thing to say the least, huh. Like the inner demons you're facing suddenly grouping together to haunt you when you are most vulnerable.

And I basically spent 45 min updating my nightmare since I woke up. Time to grab some food. Ciaos

posted by wantington-ny @ 12:16 PM 0 Comments

Listen Baby,

I'm sorry.
Just wanna tell you don't worry.
I will be late,
Don't stay up and wait for me.
I'll say again.
You're dropping out,
My battery's low,
So you know,
We're going to a place nearby...
Gotta go.


Somehow, I have this bad bad feeling nigging at the back of my mind. Oh God. Give me strength to survive tomorrow. And for the rest of the sem please while You're at it. Somehow, it feels different. Somehow.

Labels: bsb

posted by wantington-ny @ 1:25 AM 0 Comments

Hello World

After the Media in America (MIA) lecture today; suddenly I feel small, insignificant.

Putting names to faces:



1. Facebook CEO co-founder, Mark Zuckerberg (Harvard dropout - Computer Science btw) created Facebook during college. Never mind about the harsh critics of it being the ultimate relationship engine, cyberstalking yada yada.



2. Shawn Fanning, creator of Napster (the first media sharing program that revolutionised WWW but due to cpoyrights infringements has closed down) created said program during college.




3. Chad Hurley, affectionately known as the YouTube guy. Never mind that he and his co-founders whom he met at PayPal sold YouTube to Google inc for 1.65b, they created Youtube during their stint in the company. Chad joined PP after graduation from college.



4. Founder of popular website Digg, Kevin Rose, (UNLV dropout - computer science again btw).

Do you see my point? Here I am. Living each day for each day. Attempting to finish each and every tutorial before well, each tutorial. More examples will simply kill what's left of my motivation.

On the bright side, if you wanna be the next YouTube guy or the founder of the next big thing online, it seems computer science is the course to major? Lol or dropping out halfway? Double lol. And contrary to what some say (obviously naive people), those pictures are proofs that social networking sites, and some of the biggest online sites (for lack of better phrasing) are not created by nerds.

Life should be a game of cards.
Win some, lose some.

Here's a cool video by Asst. Prof Wesch regarding Web 2.0, which was shown during MIA lecture. Interesting concept. Rethink us.

posted by wantington-ny @ 7:39 PM 0 Comments

busy like a bee

or it is bumblebee?

anyway. lousy feeling. mentally taxing. psychologically stressed/traumatised. and yada yada.

time flies so fast, or rather the weekends do, now that i have a strict mon-fri week with at least 3 hours break between days.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

. butter factor-ed on thur. didn't get drunk /:
. got Punk'd by Kenneth on fri. -.-
. went to the wrong class. netball-ed on sat
. kfc-ed with Rachel after that, finally satisfied the craving
. movie-marathon-ed (if you can call 2 movies a marathon?)
. studied for quiz
. did tutorials (2/3 is good okay)
.
. long week ahead

i miss my sis and my annoying little bro already. sighs





finally caught avatar. after so longgg. hahahha i can't figure out who this guy in the poster is though.

posted by wantington-ny @ 2:25 PM 0 Comments

Nostalgia RMS

Reg says:
Elaine ♥ netball Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long says:
got suicide anot?

HAHAHAHHA
wanting says:
HAHAHAHAH
Reg says:
no right?!?!
wanting says:
tell her got
Reg says:
if have
wanting says:
HAHAHAHAH
Reg says:
i wont go
wanting says:
duh
Reg says:
eh
wanting says:
i will pass them bibs and go home
hahahaha
Reg says:
HAHAHHAA

posted by wantington-ny @ 11:30 PM 0 Comments

Ever had ...

The feeling of being alone while surrounded by people, many people?

posted by wantington-ny @ 1:07 AM 0 Comments

When All Things Fail,

We don't.

HAHAHAH



Finally.

On a sidenote, this poster so do not do justice to Channing, Sienna, Byung Hun-Lee and Rachel who plays Duke, The Baroness or Ana, Storm Shadow and Scarlett respectively.

1. Finally caught G.I. Joe. And sequel's being planned!

2. Got MB103. Hahahaha which results in me having 23AUs. -.-

3. Oh My Shit. After conferring with bestie; it came to my unfortunate realisation that I bloody end school at 5-6plus everyday. Every. Single. Fucking. Day. (ESFD) Which goes to show how much my timetable planning skills rock.

Blah

Labels: GI Joe

posted by wantington-ny @ 4:35 PM 0 Comments

14k

That was how much I lost at blackjack @ fb earlier on. What can I say? STARS drove me to it.

Sickening.

To think I actually ta pao dinner back after my lecture at 530, and started camping at the laptop since 630; the period from 1900-2200 was complete and utter bs. Which was why I turned to bj.

Finished where I started.

Talk about things coming a full circle.

Touche.

posted by wantington-ny @ 10:15 PM 0 Comments

SET

Simi elective (to) take?

HAHAHA

Anyway, having first-night in hall syndrome is no fun. Boohoo! ): Grocery shopping tmr after breakfast. Lol

posted by wantington-ny @ 2:26 AM 0 Comments

MS8002

"This course aims to provide a broad introduction to common materials and processes used in modern jewellery, their properties and reasons for their choice. Their properties will be explained and interpreted from fundamental scientific principles that are comprehensible to anyone with high school general science knowledge. Students will be introduced to technical terms used in the trade and their scientific meanings will be explained. The main objective is to appreciate and admire the progress jewellery trade has made in recent times in the materials and in the processes they use."

I can imagine this module being handy when time comes for me to pick my wedding ring. HAHAHAHHA

posted by wantington-ny @ 1:51 AM 0 Comments

It Was Those Three Words ...

Somehow fitting to end it with three dots.

Hahahahha

Anyway. Jean is leaving NTU for NUS Business! ):

No more smart retorts, veggie debates, math consultations already.

posted by wantington-ny @ 12:57 AM 0 Comments

MISS

moi internet (is) sibei slow.

Go figure. Hahahah

posted by wantington-ny @ 12:32 AM 0 Comments

Somebody To Love

"Je t'adore, je t'adore
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose"


I know it's hard to achieve, but can't a girl believe?

posted by wantington-ny @ 1:32 AM 0 Comments

Never Look Back

She said

posted by wantington-ny @ 2:09 AM 0 Comments

2010

Apparently brings my level of sarcasm to a whole new level. Hahahhahahah

posted by wantington-ny @ 6:01 PM 0 Comments

Keep Telling Yourself That

Maybe it'll come true.

Someday.

Sucker.

posted by wantington-ny @ 6:00 PM 0 Comments

(blank)

You thought my blog was dead.

HAHAHAHHA

i just find it hilarious to have that start off an entry. Even though it's pretty obvious that moi blog is not dead judging by the near daily entries. Hahahah i just koped it from a friend of mine.

posted by wantington-ny @ 12:14 AM 0 Comments

Countdown to 2010

Another year. It doesn't mean much to me. More of the same, some of the different, but mostly more of the same.

Surviving on 3 hours of sleep and the remnants of volka (absolut) was no joke. Especially when a few hours later, i nearly fainted in exhaustion only to wake up several hours later.

Party ended at around 520 in the AM, with a nearly consumed volka that chun hern brought. But wow. I think my tolerance for alcohol is quite commendable. Other than feeling a slight light-headedness when i finally retired for bed, i was all good and woke up at 830. And 830 was not typical waking up time for moi. Je suis astonished to say the least.

Anyway i'm still puzzled over Kenneth's bamboozle. Sheesh. And yuda was pretty conked up at some point in time and totally missed the finale 'I Never' game.

Happy 2010 btw. No new year resolutions. Can't be bothered to make them this time. So not looking forward to the new sem. What's with two 830 classes and mon-fri timetable. Give me a longer break/1.

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