Silence Speaks

slow down baby - christina aguilera

Okay. The truth just set in. finally, after taking the paper last Oct, we finally got to see the outcome. Man. Most of my friends did well or okay at the very least, meiping and Nigel both got A's. What's to say? I duno. I dun feel anything, not something extreme anyway. Was hoping to get a B, but got a C instead. So well, disappointment seems to be there. But I think I sort of knew it, before I saw it. Just like O's. What’s to expect after just scraping promos for chinese. At least I got merit for oral which I didn't think I would get, because I only got pass for oral. O's. It still feels not too far away when we sat for our last paper on the 16th, for Chemistry and Amaths paper 2. And this year, A's. Time flies. You know how sometimes the environment forces you to grow up. Sometimes prematurely. There's always a child in every one. This is like one terrific scenario. Like you can't get what you want, despite life being too short for regrets. Sometimes I wonder why we are in this sorta cycle; baby, child, adolescent, and adult, aged. And at every stage, we face different kind of stress, and the stress snowballs. No wonder no one likes being grown-up. Sigh. Life's sad. By the way, I'm not suicidal so dun worry. It's just I dun really like this cycle and what life's got planned for me. I always see myself marrying someone good by my standards, and then spending the rest of our lives happily ever ever after in a nice house, with maybe one or two kids. I'll do the things I like, and my hubby would come home every night and (...censored...). Lol. But then, there's quite impossible. See what reading too much fantasy books does to you! Makes you imagine things. But it's not wrong to dream is it. Anyway, I think I'm not brooding over it, by it I mean my Chinese results. What’s left to do anyway. Doesn’t matter. Re-take? Siao, waste of time. What won't kill you makes you stronger. Chinese is not important. No no no. and we are made for so much more than a subject grade please. My mind is focus and my mind is set. After blocks.

I'm really over it. At least I think I am.

posted by wantington-ny @ 1:24 PM